And when I couldn’t take it anymore, I filed for a divorce after 7 years of marriage. He kept lashing out at me and mentally abused me to feel better. It was exhausting to be with someone who had no regard for how I felt. Instead of taking responsibility for it, he started taking out his anger on me. He plunged into darkness when he lost his job due to a mistake of his. My first husband started abusing me mentally when he started coming home drunk. Previously, so many people had lurked on me with comments like, “how can you even get divorced twice? Have you no shame?” or “You are going to die alone.” Comments like these really pinched you but I wasn’t going to be in a marriage that mentally abused or scammed you. No judgemental aunty had their prying eyes on me. It’s really peaceful to do yoga, and I liked attending to it more because I had made new friends who had gotten divorced or are single like me. I didn’t know about kids but I certainly wasn’t going to be a granny at the age of 40 who couldn’t move around. “You are 39 and if you want the possibility of having a kid fast, then you have to lose some inches.” That’s what she told me. I had been advised by my doctor to lose some weight. Yes, like a damsel in distress, I needed someone to save me. I have no children, no partner to hold my hand and comfort me as well. But that’s when I opened myself up to opportunities because why not? What have I got to lose anyway? After two nasty divorces, I have nothing to part ways with.
Love is so unattainable at times that it leaves you wanting for more when you can’t get enough of a person.
It isn’t every day that you come across a second or third chance at love. Finding love once you have lost all hope for it, is truly a miracle.
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